“That feeling in the pit of your stomach. The one you get when you find out he’s been waking up thinking about her… instead of you. I wish I had never known that feeling.”
“You need to understand this. The sound of her voice alone was enough to send me flying off the edge. I had spent years of my life wondering whether love was anything like the movies; consuming, restless, boundary-less. It is. And it doesn’t happen forcefully or when it’s expected. It happens in a single, in-between moment. Like when you’re pouring milk into your coffee at the counter of your favourite shop, or when you’re busy doing something else. Anything other than searching, really. And in this single, in-between moment, you encounter her, or him, or whomever, and it feels as though your atoms are colliding at 100 miles per hour. And deep down somewhere, you feel a kind of certainty that you must’ve known each other in a different realm. And your insides go silent. Your heart stays so still you become afraid it has stopped beating altogether, and for once, the voices within your head stop dead in their tracks. It exists. And maybe it happens once and never again, but it happens. And when it does, even though your entirety is telling you to run as fast as you can, straight toward the hills, stay. Stay and feel every inch of it. Every up and down, every whirlwind of emotion it evokes out of you. Because romantic love isn’t everything, but it is definitely something. There are 7 billion people leaving footprints on this earth and you, by chance, have stumbled upon one who is capable of sending chills down your spine simply by the touch of their hand. And if that isn’t magical, then I’m not sure what is.”
I just felt the need to upload this. I’ve never loved a video of my little brother as much as I do this one. So I wanted the world to see what a beautiful person he is. Recently for some reason he’s been going through a hard time… My mom, very afraid for him, told me of how he’s been feeling like life has no meaning to him and of how he doesn’t know why. I mean we’ve had a pretty tough life, emotional wise. Growing up, it was hard because our parents were never really there for us when times got tough and now we feel like we can’t talk to anyone when we get depressed. We just keep it inside and let it all build up… Which isn’t a good thing… I know I’ve had my moments of depression and suicidal thoughts, but I’ve learned to cope with it. So I can see why maybe he feels like no one is there with him… Suicidal thoughts lurk through his mind. He says he doesn’t care if he doesn’t exist anymore… But I, as others too, feel he needs to think about how important he is, of how important his life is and of how valuable he is to himself and to us. Depression feeds off vulnerable people whether they know it or not. Depression has no place to be near someone as beautiful as him. I just want people to see him; Make him feel wanted. He’s only 21 and I want him to know that he has so much more to live for and he has so many people that care about him and will always be there for him. I want you guys to just like, reblog this and post comments of wonderful things that would bring his spirit up; then maybe he will see that he’s not alone. I want to show him that he is only human and that if he ever feels like he has no meaning; he really does. If he ever feels he’s not good enough; he needs to know he really is. I love you brother. Whether I don’t show it, I want you to know I love you so much and I’m glad you’re in my life.
Please share this if you ever felt, feel depression or if you’ve ever felt suicidal. Or if you just want to share because you want to give someone’s life a meaning.
I know I don’t say it enough, but I appreciate you so much and I love you.
